Is it just me....

Is it just me, or do others experience life as I do? I don't mean special events life, I mean the everyday, routine life that I assume we've all got - if there's any difference, that is...

Christmas has been and gone. It wasn't exactly as originally planned, but it was okay. Return to work is the day after tomorrow, and that'll probably be fine too.

It's the in between time that I struggle with. I mean, what do you do, exactly? Okay, so I sent out a text message to a few friends earlier, and one of them came over for a couple of hours. As I say, I'm fine in company - I can do company.

I'm not so good at alone, though. Maybe that sounds daft, when you consider I've been alone most of my life - for years, I've lived alone; and mostly evaded close relationships. Hence, it's not exactly unfamiliar.

But, it's still difficult. For far too long now, I've comfort eaten when I feel the voids, and trawled the internet for people I know (or occasionally don't) to chat to. But it's not good. I'm now so overweight I'm really not enjoying life, as everything is so much effort; and fewer and fewer people (it seems) use the 'net in the ways they used to. And, if I'm not careful, I end up having one-way conversations. Monologues. Is it coincidental that rhymes with blogs, at all?

I've just watched Tom Brown's Schooldays on TV, and had a weep. It's not original, but it's a change.

But, is it just me? Am I the only one whom everybody thinks has a good life - but whose life is actually completely out of his control? And if I'm not - well, so what? I don't suppose it'll make much difference to how I feel just now.

So, answer the question if you want to - or not! I'll try and cheer up for tomorrow...!!