I was SO uncomfortable in church yesterday. It was a shame, because it was a good meeting (well, all the bits organised by different parties fitted well together - that's what I call a good meeting; even if the overall thing was about Home League, which is in internal Salvation Army women's organisation that would mean absolutely nothing to any non-Salvationist who happened to be visiting). But I sat there feeling more and more wierd, and squirmed.
The trouble is, when you're not used to taking pills, you forget - or I do, at any rate! And I guess that's partly because I don't really want to be taking pills anyway - especially when its just to make me feel more comfortable doing the things I normally do unaided. I was fine on Saturday (excepting a few minutes in the cafe), but yesterday I felt like running out screaming!! I think its the large crowds that makes the difference - and that's really odd, as they never usually bother me at all.
At times like these, I need reassurance more than anything else - that there are people around (in ones and twos) who are willing to hold my hand. Sounds daft I know - but there you have it in a nutshell. And funnily enough, the people I thought would be most challenging are actually proving to be the most supportive - which only goes to prove, there's nothing quite like lived experience...
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Been reading your posts. Thinking of you at the moment in our thoughts and prayers. John.
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Goodness me, responses!!
Thanks for support to all - as you'll see from my subsequent posts, it was a temporary blip of the type that I guess we all have from time to time. I'm a great believer in such honesty - an awful lot of people suffer in isolation with all manner of relatively simple little things that nevertheless feel much bigger because of their isolation - just because nobody else ever speaks about, or admits to having them!
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